I try to make a habit of sharing more thanksgivings with God than woes. I want to take all of the good to Him along with the bad. Yes, He would still be here for me if I only took my troubles to Him but I truly believe that He also wants to hear about our blessings. However, lately I feel as if my troubles are outweighing the good. I need a balance and that balance is Jesus. There are things in my life that are just not easily fixed – especially broken relationships. When I start dwelling on these troubles, I get overwhelmed with grief, sadness and pain. This is the pinnacle for me. I can continue to wallow in this darkness or I can refocus my attention on Jesus –my Light in this world. It’s not that my troubles change or go away – they just fade in the brightness of Jesus. He created the heaven and the earth and everything in it in just six days. Everything is in His capable hands – including me and my broken relationships.
That sounds good, doesn’t it? Why then do I continue to struggle and feel like a failure? I do trust in Jesus and I try very, very hard to keep my focus on Him. However, my focus will slip back to the darkness and it is a constant daily (sometimes hourly) struggle to keep it in the Light.
I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.
Maybe my broken relationships will not get mended on this side of heaven. Maybe I’ll only see resolution at a much later time. So I need to let Jesus work in my heart and help me with accepting this mess of brokenness that I am unable to fix.
I share this with you in case you are experiencing the same pain. We can pray the following prayer together and make the decision to give this all to Jesus. We just can’t handle it without His help.
Dear Father, today, this very hour, I give you my brokenness. I know that I will have to give it to You again tomorrow and the next day, and on and on. And I know that You are okay with taking it from me each and every time I ask. I ask that You continue to guide me in this life. Keep me from going through doors that You have closed and help me make my way to the doors You are holding open. Keep me in the Light that is Your Son Jesus Christ. In His name I pray, Amen