I cannot recall too many times in my life when I desired to be back in high school.
I enjoyed my high school years but those years were a small stepping stone in my life leading me to where I am now.
I typically do not look backward as I move through life. My approach is living day by day, relying on God to tuck my past under the Blood of His Son Jesus and allowing Him to guide and protect my future.
How many times does God instruct us to not worry about tomorrow!
“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6:34 (NIV)
“This is the day the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it.” Psalm 118:24
“The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” Deuteronomy 31:6
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” Philippians 4:6
My daughter is graduating high school this month and is now in those final weeks of her high school life.
She is having so much fun right now. I feel a longing to just briefly have those days back. I wouldn’t want to return to the age of 18 permanently. I just want to return to age 18 and have a couple of carefree, exciting, fun weeks!
No demanding job; no laundry piled up and spilling out of the laundry room; no bills to juggle; no one counting on me to figure out “what’s for dinner”; no parent asking for help in understanding the Medicare hole; no teenage boys asking if their girlfriends can come over so they can slowly steal my boys away; and, no need for dieting because, let’s face it, at the age of 18, you can get by with so much more than you can at the age of 43.
I’m not jealous of my daughter. It’s difficult to put into words. It’s almost a bittersweet feeling because I know life for her is just starting and before she has time to think, she’ll be helping me with my Medicare woes.
She recently made the comment that she wished she were six years older so she would be well on her way to having her own family. She dreams of the storybook life – the perfect husband, many beautiful children, a nice house, the luxury to be a stay-at-home mom so she can home school her children. Maybe we’ve watched a little too many TV shows from the 60’s? I’m a vintage TV watcher – anything with a happy ending.
I desperately wish I could impart to her the wisdom I have now that I did not have at her age.
If we can teach our children only one thng that they can take with them into life, it should be Jesus Christ is all things to each of us. When we realize that He is all things, it takes away the fear of the unknown. Jesus is provision, protection, redemption. He is our foundation and our rock. He is all things.
We have to trust that the foundation of Jesus Christ is enough to sustain them through their journey.
Jesus is enough for everything we face in life.
Stay in the Light and the Love Always,
Eva
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